My day today. Prepare to be bored and possibly sad.

So today was pretty much going really good. I was going to a party tonight at a mates with my fiancée and friend. So I was at my house with my friend and got a text from ***** (my fiance), saying they were coming to pick us up. Only it turned out they were going to only pick me up, because their plans changed and they were going to a party at someone else's place in ******, and they could only take one extra, so we faught for a bit, then me and my friend worked shit out so that I could go, she had somewhere she wanted to go anyway. So we texted them. They'd already left. They were already almost there. And somehow this all became my fault. And everything from our past came up, and I don't want to make people against him just on what I write, but he's fucked me around quite a bit, which I put up with because he was so lovely to me and I loved him so Goddamned much. He ended up hanging up on me and wouldn't answer his phone. Very mature. I got incredibly worked up and disappeared off into my room and made a gash in my hip. Then I came out, and calmly texting him that I was sick of being treated like shit and that we're over. I know it's not nice doing over text, but he's done it to me so may times before. And I just kept letting him back in. Not this time. I want to be treated like a princess. God knows I don't deserve it, but I want it. He put me through so much, literally drove me insane. I want a guy who will actually appreciate me. So I binged. As well as I could in this house, anyway. Noodles with egg and soy sauce and cayenne pepper. Pretty depressed at the moment. The madness comes and goes. But the thought of having someone who actually wants to spend time with me, rather than getting drunk with his mates every night, it's keeping me going. Maybe I'll be that lucky one day.